Finding Myself

Dear Reader,
I have always grown up in a Christian household with strong belief values, but for me, I never knew anything about the LGBTQ community until high school. In my sophomore year, there were people I knew who were gay and lesbian. I told my parents about it and they seemed ok with it. But in my junior year, I felt something that I never felt before, which was feeling attraction to a guy. Throughout my junior and senior years of high school, I was really working hard to figure out if I was bisexual or gay. I was also figuring out my gender because I was struggling to find myself. I thought I was agender in my junior year and so I told my parents, but they were like, “You're not agender; there’s no such thing. There are only two genders.” So for me, I can’t even talk about the LGBTQ with anyone in my family due to them being so harsh on the topic because of their strict beliefs and Christian values. When I reached community college I realized that I was not bisexual or gay, but I was actually asexual. I came out to my parents in January of 2019, and they did not accept my sexuality, which was very hard for me to take. All my friends are supportive of it, and in October of 2019, I finally figured my gender, which is a demigirl. For me, I have always had a feminine side since I liked the color pink and lavender from a young age. I knew I never wanted to change my body, but I felt like male was not a term I liked. I did some research and found out that demigirl fit me perfectly. I will not be able to share or come out to any family members since they wouldn’t approve or think it’s valid.

I have also struggled with going to a church for the past 10 years because I don’t like what the church I went to believed in. My mom tells me that being LGBTQ is a sin, and it has really hurt me for her to say that because I know that God loves me no matter what. Through a website, I have found an accepting church that is close to where I will be attending a Christian college. I finally figured out myself, my gender and sexual orientation, and I won’t let anyone get in my way of me being myself!


Meet the Author
Hello, my name is Justin. I am 20 years old, and I am from California. I identify as a demigirl and asexual. Some of my hobbies are playing video games, watching sports, and watching Star Wars movies along with playing Star Wars games. I am a very sweet and caring person. Here’s my story of how I found my identity and sexuality.

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